I am part practical with a shade of anger sprinkled with irrationality, breaking things that are good with the intentions to make them better.
I am part sensible with a tint of madness sprinkled with resentment for trying to convince myself that you were…
You had me wanting you all over again,
wearing cologne that you’ve never worn before to get my attention.
You purposely drew me in
gave me a five star presentation,
their are names for people like you
but their not biblical
cursed from the moment you laid eyes on a female.
You were the poisonous type but you’d never know by looking at you.
Your scars were hidden
your bites disguised
as you crawled searching for your next meal.
I was what you decided to consume
but it was too late for me to escape
your venom already punctured my skin!
Your monologue was all too familiar,
spitting out lines from a poem I recited,
your cries followed invisible tears and I was not impressed by your weak efforts.
The songs you sang of US followed no real actions and your moans when we made love didn’t quite sound the same,
then I realized the empty side of your bed wasn’t as empty after all!
I could smell her cotton candy fragrance,
see the stains from your wild nights,
her blonde strands of hair that were delicately laid out on your pillow over my brown
and that’s when I knew this whole time you had been lying!
I got an emotional high when you reached out.
I had forgotten about your touch a long time ago
but your words now transformed a more vivid image.
I wanted to grab you through my phone and continue at the part we left off~
hands running wild,
wet bodies pressed up against our sinful acts,
immature but acting like adults.
I smiled remembering how much of my body you devoured,
crawling below to water my flower,
wondering if my shadow follows you every time you’re in the shower.
I wish he could stay in me so I could baptize him with my love
but I knew I’d be playing with eternal fire and would eventually get burned.
I’m stuck in this game,
drawn in by his rules,
seduced by his gaming system.
I had a strong urge to experience victory that’s why I stuck around
but later I came to realize that no matter how good I played
he would always win!
I inhaled you like my favorite greenery and exhaled my greatest disappointment.
I didn’t get high off your flavor like I thought I would
it tasted different this time around.
I can tell someone else’s lips were replacing mine,
that the smoke no longer lingered like the shape of me,
it was more like an unwanted dust cloud suffocating the space between